Countdown Day 2

So I sit here this evening as we have finished cleaning for the night reflecting on the journey we have been on for, well almost six years. I am looking around the house and seeing that thankfully we have only our room to straighten up and the bathrooms to clean. So as I look around my house I realize how truly blessed we are. Not just in how far we have come in this journey, but also in how we have taken that journey. That sounds a little repetitive, but how you embark on the journey is just as important as the journey itself.

I look back at where we started and thank God that He really does know what He is doing. To think we could have been responsible for a child back then is almost funny! We were so young (still kind of are really!) not just in age, but in responsibility. We were newly married and dealing with the joys of learning to share our lives together. To have brought a child into that time of our lives would truly have been a mistake. But I also feel that we have had these challenges at just the right time. If we hadn't started trying to get pregnant when we did, I wouldn't know what i know about myself now. Leaving PCOS untreated could lead to more serious health concerns and to know what I am dealing with (and that I am not alone!) has really been important in my other health decisions. All of that to say that while it would be easy for me to look back on the last 6 years and think about all of the things that went wrong, I find it easier to think about who we have become and where we are now. I could easily think about what's "wrong" with me or with this whole situation. But why? We have a beautiful life, a beautiful home and we are actually ready this time. This is our time to complete this part of the journey and move on to the next one. It is really exciting and despite the fact that I am not looking forward to the rest of the cleaning, I am so looking forward to the reward.

Patrick and I both continuously are in awe at the love and support we have gotten from our friends and family over the years. Not because we don't expect you all to be those kinds of people, but it's that the support is for us. I can't tell you how many times we have heard "if there is anything you need..." or "you are going to be such great parents and any child is so lucky to have you!" or "everything is going to work out and our prayers are with you." To hear that every step of the way has been our strength and encouragement to keep going. So this post is two-fold. The first part is as above, reflection on where we started and how far we have come and having the peace of knowing we are finally ready. The second part is to make a small attempt to show our appreciation and gratitude for the huge role you have all played in getting us to this point. We truly could not have made it hear without you. I pray God may bless you with the same love and support every day - and hopefully you get it back from us as much as we have gotten it from you! :)
We love you all!
Stayd tuned for more as we get closer and closer to the final day!