Maybe it wasn't gas after all...

So maybe my gut feeling wasn't just gas after all.  I had said that today was going to be my personal cut off date.  If we didn't hear anything about the little one we submitted our home study for then I was going to assume that we didn't get picked. After all, today would have been a full week since we had last heard anything.  I left work today at 12:30 because my super awesome boss took me to lunch and then we spent the afternoon celebrating National Medical Staff Services week (I am a medical staff coordinator at the hospital I work at.).  So I left work with the thought that if we were to have heard anything, it would have already come and I was going to assume that we hadn't been picked.

I went about my fabulous lunch and absolutely wonderful afternoon with my boss.  I really had not even been thinking about having not heard anything.  I had heard this song on the way in to work this morning and decided that God was speaking to me - that this one may not work out and if it didn't then that was ok.  These are the lyrics:

Josh Wilson – Before the Morning

Do you wonder why you have to,
feel the things that hurt you,
if there's a God who loves you,
where is He now?

Maybe, there are things you can't see
and all those things are happening
to bring a better ending
some day, some how, you'll see, you'll see

Chorus:
Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning

My friend, you know how this all ends
and you know where you're going,
you just don't know how you get there
so just say a prayer.
and hold on, cause there's good who love God,
life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,
but you'll see the bigger picture

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning
yeah, yeah,
before the morning,
yeah, yeah

Once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
memory, memory, yeah

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

com'n, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the hurt before the healing
the pain you've been feeling,
just the dark before the morning
before the morning, yeah, yeah
before the morning


Ok- how can you hear this song and not think "OK God, I'm listening.  Ok God, I will let you have it."????  So that is what I did this morning.  I let Him have it.  I really actually did!  Are you proud of me????  I really did it this time!  I went about my day with such a light heart and in such a glorious mood, that I decided that even if we didn't hear anything today I was going to be ok.   It was so wonderful!  


Then I got home from my wonderful afternoon and being that I simply had to just check to be absolutely sure, I logged in to check my work email.  There was an email in my inbox from our Foster/Adoption (FAD) worker!  She had an update for us!  She had taken it upon herself (without me requesting it I swear!) to email the little girl's worker for an update.  The worker responded a few hours later that they are in the process of putting together a selection meeting and the workers involved in the case have reviewed the submitted home studies.  She said that she would let our FAD worker know when the selection meeting would be so she could attend on our behalf and help them with the decision.  There was no mention of when that meeting would be taking place (she didn't say next week or two weeks or Monday or anything like that) but I am hoping that if they will let our FAD worker know when it is that she will be able to at least tell us when to expect some kind of decision.  


So that's the latest.  I guess we got our "word" today so it looks like we are still in the running!  Praise you Lord for your blessings!  Praise you Lord for knowing your servant well enough to know that I needed that little bit of a word to keep going.  Praise you Lord for being so amazing and so merciful and so loving that You would even consider us for this opportunity.  Lord, please continue to watch over this little one and speak to the hearts of those working on her case to let them make the right decisions for what is best for this little girl.  Thank you, Lord!